Yeah, I'm strangely calm right now. I rather like it. Just hope my mom doesn't keep talking to me, or I'll get into a bad mood again. Don't ask me why that puts me in a bad mood. One of those mysteries of life.
I've decided I really need some time to just be myself. Not that I'm saying I'm not myself around my friends, of course I am. Hm...I'm trying to think of how to put this. And I think it's the same with everybody. Like, I act naturally around my friends. I don't have to think about what other people think of me, or how I should act around certain people. I just act naturally. But how I act naturally around other people, and how I act naturally when I'm by myself are two different people. Very very similar, yes, but still different in certain ways.
I guess I feel I've kinda lost that other me...who I am when I'm not around other people. Or maybe it's just the fact that I really need to do some thinking.
Who knows, maybe it's the complete opposite. I could be doing to much thinking about everything.
But I guess whatever happens will happen, and all I can do it wait for it. If I have to do something, I'm sure I'll know, but until then, why bother worrying?
That sounds like the kind of attitude I had last year. I'd really like to get that attitude back. I lost it sometime during the summer, I'm not sure exactly when.
Yay, more english homework. Keslkie, do I really have to do it tonight? Can't I leave it for after the long weekend? =) Please?...
Uh oh..that's not a good thought to start off the night...
Hm...better stop this before I stop making sense entirely...
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