Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Life works

Has anybody else noticed how life just sometimes works out for you?

There are many examples of this in my own life, and I shall proceed to explain ones that come to mind.

There are the simple things. Like how I wasn't ready for my lesson one week and I was freaking out about how I hadn't practiced, and I was stressing like you couldn't imagine. Over the night, it snows, and my bus doesn't show up in the morning, so I miss my lesson.

Like coming back from paintballing with Ryley, Josh, and Jordan, and having so much fun I didn't really want to get back home, and Jordan suggests going for ice cream, therefore extending my time with them by an hour or so.

Like when you're running out of time and you feel stressed that you can't get everything done, and you find out that something's been canceled, giving you more time to finish things and calm down.

It goes on and on like that, and you can even get into bigger things.

For instance, how I got where I am today, with my bassoon. Think about it. In elementary, I knew my mom was in band in high school. I wasn't sure whether to do it, but my grade six teacher told me if I don't do it in my first year of jr. high, I'd probably not get another chance to, so I should try it if I'm thinking about it, and then I can just not do it again if I don't like it.

Then, on the first day of registering for options in jr. high, I almost didn't even sign up for it, because all my other friends at the time thought band was ridiculous, and I'd have to step away from them and go into unknown territory. Which I did.

Then there's the fact that I barely even know what a bassoon was. Here are the things I did know:
1) it was rather large
2) it was rather low
3) not many people played it

That was it. And yet I had some burning desire to play it.

And then I had to listen to my friends talking about what they wanted to do when they grew up, and they all had ideas of what to study in university and such...and I had nothing. I did not like classes, why would I want to keep going with them after high school?

Until somebody reminded me that I should do what I like. And the thing I liked most out of everything was playing bassoon.

And here I am.

But I digress.

My point is, I see so many people worrying about life, and making a big deal out of everything single thing that happens, and generally just thinking too much about everything.

My belief is that life will help you get to where you want to be. Even if you don't know you want to be there yet, as with me and music.

I'm not saying you should be completely passive with your future. But maybe we should all just slow down and let things work themselves out. I know people who, when they get an idea for their future, they make a beeline straight for it, and immediately start working towards getting there.

Now, I'm not saying that's a bad thing. But there is such a thing as finishing up before moving on. Ending a phrase nicely, because going on to the next one, as some might say.

Personally, when I get an idea for my future, I consider it, and basically just file it away in my head. Not to be forgotten about, but rather, to be reminded of. Contrary to rushing straight to it, but also not just waiting for something to come to me, I keep the thought with me, and keep an eye out for opportunities. Because I really do think that if you want to get somewhere, and you're willing to work for it, life will give you the right opportunities, without you having to sweat blood and tears to get there yourself.

That sounds like I'm preaching a little. I know I'm not perfect, and I'll admit, I don't do that all the time. There are many times that I'm too aggressive about getting somewhere in life, or even way too passive about it. But I believe my point remains the same.

In other news, I'm getting a very one-sided response to the latest poll. The idea has occurred to me that people are just replying in the way that they think I want them too, because they don't want to say that what I write is boring. But you guys wouldn't do that to me, right? =)

Of course not. I trust you. Even so, I really should pick a better poll topic for next time. Like...

I don't even know. But I'll come up with something for next time, I promise.


"We all play different instruments, with different shapes, and substances, and all with different apparatuses used for creating sound."

Friday, March 13, 2009


I think I just finished the last apple fritter one, which is disappointing, because those ones are my favorites.

For my last driving lesson tonight we drove to Airdrie and he bought me hot chocolate, a danish (which we split), and a 10 pack of timbits which he said were all for me. And he got himself a coffee.

And now I have the house to myself for a while, until Graham or Uncle Chester get home. Which is nice, I don't get the house to myself often enough.

Overall, life has not been bad in the past little while. This week has been a little rough, because I had a history test, which stressed me out a little, and you all know how I react when stressed. Not always good.

But that's okay, because this weekend is going to be fabulous. Well, except maybe CYO, but we'll see about that one. Especially since Alicia isn't there to play cards with me...what will I do while he's doing string work? Hope that there isn't much string work to be done, I suppose. Maybe I'll just stay up late tonight, and then I'll be so tired that I'll just sleep while he's doing it. But that also won't put me in a good mood in the morning...*sigh*

Ken sits right behind me...maybe he'd like to play cards with me...

Anyways, after CYO I get to see the boy, which is always a glorious occasion. Then we'll go and do a quick trip for party items, and...extremely non-alcoholic drinks, as they're calling them these days...then spend a nice lazy time at home leading up to the party, then party like there's no tomorrow. After history, I think I deserve it. Now is exactly the right time to party like there's no tomorrow. It's still early enough for me to think I did well, and I have nothing to tell me anything against that belief yet.

Oh, and then swimming on Sunday. =) Glorious times.

It's nice not to work on a weekend for once. It's a pity it's kind of required to take at least one weekend. I could always do the silly thing and just check in at the end of the week, and hope all the weekend shifts are taken, but then I also don't get the good choices during the week, which is not always so good. Oh well. I get this one, which is good.

How should I make the most of my time in the house alone? Play my own music really loud? Be lazy? Bake cookies and dance in the kitchen? Rock out by myself on Rock Band? So many choices, not nearly enough time.

And as much as my brother annoys me the majority of the time he's around...I'm kinda bored when he's not around.


"The video won video of the year or something, but I don't think it's that good. I think it just won because she cries in it."

Monday, March 02, 2009


It occurred to me a while ago that I don't often write short blog posts. Usually I write really long ones, which may or may not have anything important contained in them.

I also realized that I never really blog unless I have something significant to say. Which usually results in me not blogging for various lengths of time.

Using Rae as an example, her post today contained three lines. Mine are usually more like three pages.

So maybe I'll start posting more, and make my posts shorter. It's something to think about.

In the time I haven't posted, I've learned a lot about music and myself, and I think my mood's turning up again, away from the unmotivated and unproductive spell I was having. That's a good thought.

New poll up. There were five votes on the last one, and they were pretty much spread out. I'll leave that one up so people can look at results while also posting a new poll.

I remember having a question for all of you, which I wasn't going to pose in poll form...but I suddenly can't remember it. I'll let you know if I do.

Oh yes, I do remember. I'm thinking of having some guest bloggers on here every once in a while. Thoughts?


"I like how everybody commenting on facebook is currently in class right now."