Saturday, September 29, 2007

The most amazing movie ever

I watched it tonight. Me, Chloe, and Henry went to the movies. It was very totally amazing. Across the Universe, which is the movie with all the Beatles songs if you're like me and can't identify a movie by just the title.

It was seriously so amazing, Not great if you're the kind of person that's plot orientated, but amazing if you're a thinker type. There were so many things that I knew had some message hidden in it somewhere, but I just couldn't completely get it. I really want to suggest (strongly suggest) that we watch it in English, just so we could have a huge discussion on it so I might actually understand it more.

Anyways. Today was definitely very fun. I have to upload pictures from Heritage Park onto facebook, because that was totally awesome. I also saw Weston there, which was great.

I get to sleep in tomorrow, which is amazing. It also means that I actually get to stay up tonight, and give in to my inner night owl. Which will be very nice.

I also think I'm gonna lay off the playing for another week. I'll probably play for major stuff like U of C Symphonic Band, but for the most part, I think I'm gonna go easy in school, and just practice fingerings for my lessons, and not actually play. I played through all three hours of All Cities, and then the whole sectional for CYO today. My mouth felt like it just went back a whole week. Not very pleasant. It doesn't feel all that bad now, but still, I'd rather let it heal a little more, rather then doing the whole two steps forward and one step back kinda thing.

Not much else to say I think. Although I am missing RPing. Between talking about it with Corey and writing about it in writers workshop, I really am missing it. Sigh.

~Calminaiel~

"The table's not long enough? Well, use your imagination. Be creative."

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Life in general

So, I was totally going to rant here about how I hate it when you need people to do something for you, even a very simple thing, and they still can't do it. Then you're left hanging there, needing to get stuff done, but unable to while people aren't helping.

But that mood quickly passed. I feel much better now.

Note to self: Must update news on Abe music group, and on music council website. I've been putting that off because I really haven't had the energy/effort to get to work on it, so I should just get it done.

Other note to self: Must also water my plants. They're dying. It's hard to sleep at night because I swear I can hear them all crying out to me.

Okay, so maybe it's not that bad. But hey, at least I have an imagination. Or whatever you want to call that thing inside my skull.

Man, I am in a weird mood right now. I think I'm just insanely happy, but it's not the kind of happy that makes me bounce around and be all hyper. It's an inside happy that just generally brightens my day. The kind of happy that makes me wish it wasn't night, and that I was hanging around with friends and laughing and generally enjoying life.

Which I technically am doing right now. Enjoying life, that is. I'm just not doing it with friends.

And I won't really be enjoying life when I have to get to work on my social. But at least I get to do it here. It's a lot more relaxing then a classroom.

I also have to write in the notebook tonight, and finish my pro/con list. I'm horrible at writing those. I'm better at sorting piles...sometimes. There are the occasional times where everything seems to end up in the maybe pile. Which isn't exactly helpful most of the time.

Grade 10s make my day. I know we've already mostly discussed that, but it's very true.

I was walking down the hall during French, to get something from the office, and I saw Mark dash out of a classroom, put on a pair of glasses, stick a paper tie to his shirt, and walk back it. It was very odd.

Oh, I was also going to rant about people who don't show up to meetings, and then wonder why they don't know what's going on, and then they try to discuss everything with one other person afterwards. Which doesn't work. That's why there are meetings.

But I don't feel like going to much into that. I'm in a happy mood, I'd like to stick with that.

I definitely need some cookies. We haven't had any in forever.

And I am looking forward to pajamas tomorrow. Not so much my bassoon lesson, seeing as I haven't practiced all week, and my mouth still kinda hurts, and I'll be using a stupid bassoon and most likely a stupid reed. But oh well. I will bring my camera to All Cities, so maybe we can get some fun rehearsal pictures to put on our facebook group.

Must go now if I expect to finish everything I want to, and perhaps get to bed at a half decent time.

Ha. Bed at a half decent time. Like that'll ever happen. =P

~Calminaiel~

"Oh...I was hoping they joined because they saw our posters."

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

I love...

Hokay, so I wasn't going to post tonight, but seeing as I actually kept track of things I should write here, I figured I'd might as well not waste that.

First things first, how can somebody have so much influence on my life? Seriously, it's getting ridiculous. Do I really want that to be one of the primary thoughts whenever I think of high school? I'm not so sure. I'm terribly frightened for the end of high school, when we'll go our separate ways. I really don't have any clear thoughts on this, because I'm not entirely sure exactly how I feel, how I should feel, or how I want to feel. It's all a mixture of everything. Have I wasted my high school years? No, I won't go so far to say that.

I'll stop there, before I start going in circles, because I know I'm very good at that.

Recently I've realized just how much I've changed since jr. high. It's scary in a way, but I guess I find a lot of things in life scary. It's odd to think how I've been a different person for almost every year of high school / jr. high...and at least once during every year, I thought to myself 'I'm finally the person I want to be.' And I know I'm saying it to myself this year too.

But it's way too early in my life to think that I'm going to stay the same. People always say that life's too short, but life's not that short. 17 still leaves plenty of room for change. Does anybody really ever stop changing in their life?

But honestly, I love my friends so much. Looking bad to early jr. high, I wouldn't even trust one single person to certain information. And looking at myself now, I've let that same type of information out to at least three different people, in two days. And it's not like I'm uncomfortable with it. Usually when this many people know about something, I start worrying about how everybody knows. I know I was like that in grade 10. But now I don't even think about it. Is that a sign that I'm growing up? Or that I'm finally finding more friends that I know I can trust? Or both?

I love my life in general. I love the band room, and the sense of security it so easily brings. I love the people in the band room. I love Mr. Waters, who always makes you feel like an equal, even if on a musical scale we're all splotches of mud compared to him. I love Mr. Paddock, who has his own little inside jokes. I love our student teachers, both Mr. Wilson and Mr. Heffernan (sp?). It seems like they both started out so quiet when they first got here...and I know we brought Mr. Wilson out of his shell, as much as you can with a guy like Mr. Wilson. And I'm pretty sure we're getting to Mr. Heffernan. He's already talking more.

Speaking of him, he talked to me during my spare before he started teaching the grade 10s. He's so cool. And I like his conducting style, too. Quite easy to follow, which I appreciate with a conductor.

I love inside jokes, if nothing else, simply because for the longest time I was never accepted into inside jokes. And now suddenly I find I have at least one with almost everybody. It's great.

I don't like leaving people out of things, whether they be inside jokes, or just private message things. I don't like leaving people out, but, especially when it concerns somebody else, I don't exactly want to explain things in detail all the time. Especially when surrounded by multiple other people. I'm always afraid people think that I'm trying to keep them out of it when I do that, but it's not that.

Bed would probably be good soon. I'll write down some notes about the essay that I discussed with my dad. He's seriously going to save my life in social. I learned more from him tonight then I have in the past three weeks with Lopez. Of course, I also learned more about capitalism from one phrase from Harker than three weeks with Lopez, so I'm not sure if that's saying much. Seems like I can learn social faster anywhere other then with Lopez. Funny how that works out.

Darn, tomorrow's the day I have to miss most of English. That's sad. I like English class.

Bed now. Pray for me and the essay tomorrow, although I believe this time I actually kind of know what I'm talking about.

~Calminaiel~

"Misly and Mamba?"

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Life is good

Okay, yeah, I was definitely over-thinking things last night. It was one of those moments where things just built up and pretty soon it felt like I had so many things in my head I was going to explode. Which I basically did. But I'm alright now, so that's good.

I love the way Chloe put it. When you're single, you either have a crush on nobody, or everybody. It's so true. And I'm most definitely the type to have a crush on everybody.

Anyways, I have to veer away from this topic soon, or I'll start being all thoughtful again and it'll just lead to something similar to what happened last night, and I can only have one of those episodes every once in a while. Too much, and it's not healthy.

But it is good to know I'm not the only one like this. =)

Not much else to say other then I'm really starting to wander away from signing up for online math. I mean, I got myself ready to do it, and I said I was going to, and then I went to do it...and then I started to find out how much work it takes to do it, and my resolution to just get it done started to leave...

I don't really want to go into more detail about that, because I know I'll just end up going in circles. It's stupid.

I definitely love writing notes. I think it's an awesome way to communicate. That's probably one of the reasons I like letters so much. And speaking of letters, I still have a few to write. But anyways...

I guess I really don't have that much to say tonight...

Nope, not right now. So I think I'm gonna get my french done so I can go to bed. I doubt we need anything done in social, and I hope we don't, because I don't plan on doing anything for social.

~Calminaiel~

"Adorable in a puppy dog way, or adorable in a more significant way?"

Monday, September 24, 2007

Stop the madness!

What is going on with me? I mean, seriously, it was just in my last couple of posts I believe where I said I was too busy to think, and that was all good.

And suddenly today I find myself thinking.

I guess it's not as bad as it possibly could be. But still, it's more than I'd like to be doing.

Second of all, why do I find myself suddenly attracted in some way to anybody who has a certain amount of ability with music? I mean, honestly, it's not even funny. Look at how many people I found myself doing this to over the day...but I'm going to mention no names, to save myself from embarrassment. If you can figure out who I'm talking about, good for you.

1) This one I really wish I didn't feel, because it totally makes things worse. I mean, this isn't helping my situation much. It's just that today when he was playing it was like...wow. And then a split second after that thought it was like, excuse me, don't even go there. I don't even want anything to happen. Blah, it's weird...

2) But this one is even more weird. I mean, I really hope nobody ever knows about this, especially him, because it's so weird. Not that it's a real crush or anything, he can just actually play his instrument (get your mind out of the gutter, seriously) and it's amazing. And I keep telling myself this is way too weird, and I have to seriously avoid these thoughts. But then why does part of me wonder if it's real? Ahh....

3) This one's pretty much the same as the last one. Also totally weird. Also kind of wondering if I might actually like him...no, I'm not even going to go there. I can't like him. It'd be way too weird. Moving on...

4) Now this one's not so bad, because I'm sure a lot of people thought this when they heard him. Well, maybe not a lot, but I know at least one other person kinda knows what I'm talking about. Still. It was just like...marry me. Right now.

5) This one is kinda maybe an actual crush...but I'm not sure, because I really don't talk to him enough...but still. He seems really nice. Stupid thinking...

6) And this one kinda started at the end of last year, just before summer started. So I'm still bouncing back and forth on this one. I don't know if I actually like him, or if I'm just kidding myself, or if I'm just getting really desperate...I don't even think he actually likes me like that anyways, so I shouldn't be worrying about it anyways...but why am I still wishing that maybe he does like me a little?

Blah! Look at that! 6 potential crushes?! Not healthy! Okay, take away one, because it's not really serious, and I know why I felt that way. Take away another, because I also know that's not serious, and I don't want anything to happen with him anyways. So now it's 4. Take away another two...and perhaps keep them in the maybe pile...just because it actually would be weird I think...although I can't say I'd turn it down if the chance came...So now that really only leaves 2. So I guess that makes me seem a little less pathetic/desperate.

Still. Kelskie told me not to think about this stuff or I'd just confuse myself. And here I am thinking about it and confusing myself!

Okay, moving on to a different topic now.

I hate it how everybody dislikes this one person so much, and I really don't mind them so much. Is that really a big deal? I don't dare even talk about them at all, for fear that I might say something positive about them and everybody else will shoot me down. I really hate it.

I don't even know if anybody reads this anymore besides Chloe. Oh well.

And I'm sure at some point during this year I actually am going to seriously take up that offer of just laying down somewhere and pouring out my whole series of life problems out to somebody. I mean, it's happened the last two years. Not that I'm saying it's a bad thing. I'm just giving a heads up.

Damn stupid thinking. It's not all bad I guess. But still. I could probably survive without it. Let's hope the weeks activities drive some of them out.

Hokay, off I go to do english homework. I think I actually want to get to bed at a half-decent time...although I will probably get the undesired sleep time of somewhere between 3 and 7 hours. I was honestly considering doing my plan of getting less sleep during the week so I'd be awake during the day. But I do enjoy sleep.

Anyways, english homework. Seriously. Wish me luck.

~Calminaiel~

"Don't insult my band council! I've dreamed of this for two years! They're my band council!"
"And you've been wanting to resign for the past three weeks!"

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Oh, the things I'll never know

So, while reading the blogs of various people tonight, it surprised me how much might be happening to other people that I don't know about. Or that they may be doing things that I never thought they would do. And it's surprising to think that people might read my blog and realize the same thing.

Anyways, that was my most recent thought of the night.

I really need to do my French homework. Social too, but if worse comes to worse I can always do that in spare. I actually have to do a mini project for French, and I have it first, meaning I actually have to get it done tonight. Hopefully it'll turn out looking like I put a whole week's worth of energy into it, instead of just one night.

I meant to post last night, after the hockey game (which I went to :D), but it took so long to get through traffic and get home, that by the time I eventually did get back, I just kinda wanted to go to bed. It was a good hockey game, though. Although I really disliked the fact that the Flames fans in the crowd actually all started chanting 'Oilers suck' at one point. Now, I'm not going to like, I really don't like the Flames, and my dislike for them will only grow as the season continues. But still, I don't start chanting out insults to them at a game. Honestly.

Hopefully by the end of the week I'll be able to play again. That'll be nice. It's gotten really depressing to go to so many rehearsals and not be able to play. I think I'm going to start trying to play tomorrow. Just slowly. Like, I'll start sitting in rehearsals with my instrument (be it sax or bassoon), and maybe just play every once in a while. But I'll definitely stop if it hurts. I don't want to ruin my mouth by forcing myself to play before I'm really ready to.

Yes, I watched a slightly hopelessly-romantic movie tonight. Now I'm all full of romantic fantasy. Geez, I'm so pathetic. =P

I'm honestly not sure what else to say. I mean, I have stuff I could mention, but none of it really has a real point. And some of it I just don't really feel like mentioning, I guess.

I think it's good that I'm keeping busy right now. It gives me less time to think. Anybody who knows me knows that it's not always a good thing when I start thinking. And if you didn't know that, you know it now. So I know I may complain about it sometimes, and wonder why I decided to do so much, but maybe I really need it.

The one thing I am consistently complaining about is the fact that I actually have to do grade 12 before I can go to university. I mean, I've been at the university so much already this year, and I've hung out and talked with Mike, and Stephen, and a whole bunch of other university music students, and it sounds like they have soo much fun, and I'm so excited to go and join them!

But don't get me wrong, I am looking forward to grade 12. Despite how I always complain about the band drama, it does make like interesting, and while part of me dreads it, part of me almost looks forward to what's going to happen.

Hmm, seems like I'm pretty consistent in complaining about something, but liking it at the same time. It's almost safe to say that whenever you hear me complaining about something, you can assume that part of me enjoys whatever it is I'm complaining about.

Remember I said almost safe. So don't think that I actually enjoy some stupid useless player in some ensemble that I'm in just because I complain about them a lot.

And I also really need to have a good talk with Kelskie. It hit me a few days ago that I really haven't had a good talk with her since before summer. Sure, we've talked since then, and we've had brief good conversations, but overall, I do feel like we haven't really talked / hung out in a while. It makes me sad.

I love it when I start getting closer to friends. I mean, I just think it's so cool when you have a friend that you considered a pretty good friend, and you start to realize your becoming really good friends. I'm not sure if that made sense, but it does to me, and that's all that really matters.

I love how I say I don't really have anything else to say, and then I end up blabbing on a little more about nothing in general.

But that's what blogs are good for, right?

Okay, I really need to at least starting thinking about my French poems, so for now I guess I'm off, even though I know I'll end up taking so many homework breaks that I'll end up being up late. Oh well. Such is life.

You know, I really feel like I'd get more work done if my family went to bed earlier. It's not an excuse, and it sounds stupid, but it's true. I really never feel like actually starting homework until everybody else in my house is in bed. It's weird.

And how I do love the auto-save thing they have for these posts. I walked away from the computer for two seconds, my mom got on, and closed the window. But thanks to that, I don't have to retype everything! Yay.

What is with my family and closing every single one of my windows whenever I leave the computer for two seconds? Geez.

And now I really should end this before it gets any longer.

~Calminaiel~

"As much as I would love a night where the whole music program can just watch the music council make idiots of themselves..."

Thursday, September 20, 2007

I'm not dead yet!

Hokay, I'm back. I've been pretty much super dead tired these past couple days, and it didn't seem like I was really going to contribute anything of value to this blog. But now I'm back. At least until I get really super tired again. =P Which actually shouldn't take long.

Well, what can I say? I'll start with the basic stuff, that anybody can understand. I may or may not move into weird obscure thoughts that only certain people can understand. We'll see.

My mouth's doing alright. It bugs me, not being able to play. Really. I kinda feel awkward in rehearsals, and I generally just don't know what to do with myself. The past few days I've been coming home and suddenly realize I have to practice, just to realize that my lack-of-bassoon and recent lack-of-wisdom-teeth prevent that. I can say that I kind of am enjoying the extra free time, not that I'm using it to do anything productive.

However, I'm not really looking forward to making a reed in front of my teacher tomorrow. She's going to point out things that I'm doing wrong. Which is good I guess...but still. I tend to be a little self-conscious about my reed making.

There's another depressing thought I could mention, but I'd rather not. Maybe if I have more time to think about it, and accept it, I'll be okay with it. That's what it was like last year, so maybe it'll happen again this year. Only this time I know what I'll be missing, which does make it harder.

My horoscope, according to somebody I trust: "Your emotions will fluctuate for a while, but you know just as well as anyone else that this is normal. You'll have some things you need to figure out, and you should get them over with sooner rather than later. Talk to people you need to, get that crap load of back to school homework out of the way and try to relax. You'll be stable faster than you can say 'supercalifragilistic'"

As a side note, why the 'expialidoscious' was left out, I'm not sure.

Anyways, I know that a lot of people don't take horoscopes seriously, and that they're even written so that they could apply to 90% of the population anyways. And it's not that I exactly believe them. I guess you could say I use them more to reflect on my life more then to tell me about my life.

So, the thing about the emotions I can easily understand. I don't think I've been emotionally stable since grade 10. So that's definitely no surprise.

About figuring things out...yeah, I know I should figure things out sooner rather than later. But I've also been really bad at the whole figuring things out thing. I mean, it's been, what, a year since all that crap started happening to me? And I'm still figuring things out. That's the kind of delay I have when figuring things out.

Sometimes I wonder if I need to re-evaluate who I am. Perhaps make a few changes. However, I have to remember that re-evaluating myself, and attempting to change, was what got me into a mess to start with.

Oh dear, it's mind-boggling to think of how I've changed. And how I'm probably still changing. Every once in a while I still find myself wondering if I can ever go back to the way I was. I guess not. But there are definitely more times then there used to be where I'm happy with who I am.

It's also slightly confusing...seeing as I don't really have a positive or negative view of this topic whenever I think about it now. I never really find I have a clear opinion...I just reflect. It's as if I'm my own outside view. It's kind of a scary thought...I've never been able to look at my own life without a strong opinion about it, be in positive or negative.

Maybe the best idea is just not to think about it too much. I'm sure as the year goes on I'll be given more things to think about, and stuff like this will eventually be pushed back. I'll figure it out then. Despite the fact that my horoscope says I should do it sooner. =P

As to talking to people I need to...yeah, I definitely need to do that. How can my life still seem to revolve around the same thing it did in grade 10? Even after all that happened? I swear, I don't think it's healthy. And even the thought of after high school, although university is exciting, is still scary, because I don't know what I'll do after that aspect of my life is suddenly not there. Will there be a way to keep in there in some small way?

*sigh* So many questions.

Everybody's been telling me I need to relax. And it's not really that I'm not relaxed, or that I'm stressed or anything. Well, okay, when it comes to music council planning camps, maybe just a little bit. But not as much as people may think. Or maybe I'm just unusually relaxed right now, so it doesn't seem as big a deal as it usually does during the day.

I could also go into a little shpeal about things that are important to you, and how some people assume that it's not a big deal, when it really is for you. I could. But that would also involve bringing up something that I still need some time to think about, so I think I'll let that thought alone for a while.

Looks like I'm about to have another issue to deal with here, so I think I'll leave for now. I'll hopefully blog more often, it really is enjoyable for me, although I'm sure half of you don't understand a thing I say here.

I love it when I can be there for my friends when they need it. I just hope I can actually be a help, and not just another person who doesn't understand.

~Calminaiel~

"He's actually a nice guy. He does have a sense of humor. One day a bassist brought a telescope to rehearsal and used it to stare at him all rehearsal. And he laughed. He fired him, but he did laugh."

Monday, September 10, 2007

Thinking in the shower

Some people sing in the shower. I think. To each his own.

I'm also slightly sentimental right now because we're watching the country music awards on tv, and George Canyon just performed 'I want you to live'. If you've never heard that song, search it, and listen to it. I don't care if you don't like country. Even better, search it on youtube or something and find the video. Seriously.

Anyways, that song got to me. Especially since I've kinda been thinking about stuff like that, ever since we talked about the stuff going on in Iran in social class. I guess it never really affected me directly, so I never thought about it much, but that class actually kinda made me realize that people are actually dying at a regular rate. And not just the handful of Canadians that we hear about every once in a while.

So, I don't really think I know enough about the subject of what's happening in Iran enough to actually have an opinion about whether they should still be fighting over there. I guess maybe that's what social class is for.

I've also been thinking about the past in the last little while. Not really regretting it...but not exactly happy about it either. It's really just neutral...I'm not even sure which word to use. I want to say reminiscing, but I don't think that really describes what it is. It sounds like I'm longing for the past again, which isn't really what I'm doing.

Mike, an amazing 18 year old, second year university student who's amazing (did I mention he's amazing?), anyways, he did an audition for second chair for the Red Deer symphony orchestra, and got accepted! It's so cool. Like, he's in a professional orchestra, and in second year university!

It kinda really made me think about my life. It's like, what am I doing with my life? Here's this guy who isn't even past 20 yet and he's got a professional gig with a professional group. And what am I doing? I'm putting off french homework, putting off signing up for math online, and getting frustrated with my stupid reed, because my reed is dull and I put off ordering a sharpening stone for so long, so my knife's super dull, and I'm putting off making new reeds until I can get my sharpening stone and sharpen my knife.

So, basically, I'm just putting off my life in general.

Which will only work for so long, really. Too often in my life, I really want to just press a pause button so I can stop and catch up with things. Or at least have a moment to collect my thoughts. But it seems like either I never get a chance to do that, or when I do get a chance I don't actually use it to stop and think. Instead I sleep, or daydream, or otherwise just find a way to waste my time. Which then makes me think I should have been practicing, because lately anytime I find myself wasting time, I know I should be using said time to practice.

Really, isn't that what all the best music students do? It really feels like it. Most of the most amazing musicians I know talk about how much they practice, and they really do make it sound like any time they're not doing anything, they're practicing. And sometimes I just feel like I can't make myself do that. And I can think of a couple people who would say that that's not true, and it probably just seems like they practice every spare moment of their life to me. But I can imagine a couple people who would just say, yeah, that's what you have to do to be a musician. Get used to it.

Which really isn't a very comforting thought.

At the same time as I'm thinking all that, there's also a part of me that still insists on saying that I really am just a high school student right now. I know that Mike's amazing and getting into amazing groups, and I really shouldn't compare myself to him, because he's been in university for a year already, which means he's had more playing time then I've had, and overall he's had more music experience then me. I'll get to a point like that at some time in my life. It's just not now. Who knows, maybe at one point Mike was thinking that he'd never be as amazing as somebody else. Maybe if I just keep going the way I'm going, I'll be something like that too.

Then again, maybe not, but you never know. There's too many maybes in my life for my liking. But, when thinking about the future, it's hard not to use maybe. Nothing's for sure. I don't like thinking that some things are for sure. Of course, there are times when I slip into assuming that some things are for sure, but generally I try not to.

I was also talking to a friend from MusiCamp a couple years ago. She said she didn't come back because she outgrew the camp, and it wasn't challenging her.

This made me really think about the kind of activities I do. I'm in a lot of stuff that doesn't necessarily challenge me, but I enjoy it so much. Like MusiCamp, and sometimes All Cities. The music isn't always as hard as it could be, but I love doing those things so much. And then there's stuff like Academy, which I don't really enjoy, but in the long run was probably quite good for me from a music view.

Then again, there are also things that are both, like CYO. I love CYO, and the music is definitely not easy.

So it makes me wonder if I'll have to continue to choose between things that are fun and a little easier, or more challenging things that I don't enjoy as much. Or maybe I'll just keep discovering things that are like CYO.

I think that's pretty much all my thoughts for right now. I recognized so many people when I went to the university today. Half of them probably wouldn't know me at all, but I recognized them from various places. It made me quite happy. I can't wait to go there. There were a couple people who recognized me from somewhere else, and actually asked me what year I was in. I was like...I'm not yet. =P

I have a couple pet peeves that happened to me today that I could mention, but the more I think about it, the more I think that I'd probably just be a hypocrite. I'm pretty good at doing that when it comes to my pet peeves. I'm not sure I would like myself if I was somehow able to meet myself.

~Calminaiel~

"He has a girlfriend. Believe me, that was the first thing I checked when I got him on facebook."

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Blogs, anyone?

Am I the only one who updates their blog anymore? I actually feel kinda lonely. I'm the only blogger...

Except I'm not. =P

Anyways, I should be doing a little bit of French homework, but I decided to write here first, seeing as I didn't do much today anyways.

Other then continue my attempt to find a good way to put in my contacts. I can get them out alright. Putting them in sucks. Oh well. It'll get better, I'm sure.

Sometimes I actually do feel like my blogs are slightly pointless. Really. I'm not really saying anything too significant. Meh. Maybe I do sometimes. Then I just have pointless days like this, where I basically post just to be able to say I did. Oh well.

Must prepare for a fun new week of school. Yay.

Oh, and must spend most of tomorrow praying that my reeds makes in through my audition. I may or may not talk to the university bassoonist tomorrow at the seminar to see if they have any reed tips. Perks of having university bassoon buddies. =)

A perk for tomorrow...no social. =)

~Calminaiel~

"A Wiggle. A cross between a wizard and a muggle."

Saturday, September 08, 2007

A long long time ago...

Yeah, we just finished watching Star Wars. It was pretty cool. Haven't seen Star Wars in a while. But at the same time, it's not like I watch a lot of movies anyways. =P

So, I'm pretty much addicted to letters. They're fun to write, fun to receive, and just generally awesome. So if I have your address, I may or may not send you a letter eventually. I've already sent two, and I just finished another one this afternoon. It's pretty sweet.

First CYO practice today! Geez, I forgot how un-awake I am for morning rehearsals. Hopefully it gets better, but we'll see. My reed was definitely not good, which was not so enjoyable. I'll have to work a lot on my reed tomorrow, if I'm going to get it in half-decent shape for my audition. I'm getting steadily more nervous for that. I really don't want to think that I didn't get in just because of a bad reed.

And I'm pretty much fed up with my hair. It's so stupid. I pulled about half of it out today because there were soo many bad tangles. So, as of right now, I've resolved that I'm going to keep my hair tied back with about four different hair elastics, which is one of the most efficient ways to keep it from getting too tangled. I know I'll probably get tired of that soon too, and start wearing it down again, but for now, it works.

I also actually should do some french homework tomorrow. I have no idea when our french poems are due, but I'd rather not be completely scrambling at the last minute to get it done.

Speaking of school, I still need to see guidance about math online. Which I'm still not really looking forward to, but if it improves my mark, then I guess it's all good.

Oh, and last night I went to a friend's house with my dad to watch the football game, and on the way home I drove, and we went on Deerfoot! It was late, so it's not like there were a lot of cars there, but it was still pretty cool. Now my parents are talking about getting me to learn a standard, which will be interesting.

~Calminaiel~

"I smell chicken."

Monday, September 03, 2007

Last day of freedom

Or so my brother says. I'm just excited to go back and see everybody.

However, it also means I have to start getting up early, which is not exactly an appealing thought.

Other then that, I really don't have much to say. I didn't really do anything today, besides read my book. It, by Stephen King. Quite an amazing book. I love it when books can make me gasp out loud.

I also attempted to practice, but my reed made me really mad, and I didn't like my tone, and overall I just got annoyed and frustrated. Not a good attitude for practicing.

Yay for seeing friends tomorrow!

~Calminaiel~

"You need wizards. And ninjas. Ninja-wizards! And bears. Bears with lazer beams on their heads. Yeah. Man, that would be so freakin' awesome!"

Sunday, September 02, 2007

I win!

That's right, today I beat Zelda: Twilight Princess. I'm so proud of myself. It's the first Link game I've actually played. And by played, I mean more then getting on my brother's file to ride the horse, which is what I always did on the N64 Link. But it was pretty awesome. Mind you, I didn't win quietly. No, the last dungeon and a half it wasn't uncommon to hear me yelling at the TV. Mostly because I'd make a wrong move, or press a wrong button, and blame Link and the game and yell at it. Although I did refrain from using any huge curses. =P

Anyways, I'm very proud of myself, and the plotline was amazing! I was disappointed when it ended...but I usually am when it comes to games with amazing plotlines. I just want it to keep on going forever.

I'm not exactly sure if I saved properly after beating the game though...so I may or may not have to beat the last part of the boss again if I ever go on it again. Because I kinda want to run around Hyrule Country while it's not being inhabited by evil creatures of various sorts. Just to see what it's like. And because I like riding the horse. =)

"Nobody presses the A button like my sister!" - My brother. =)

Anyways, so that's really the only major thing that happened today, seeing as I started playing at about 1:00 ish and didn't come upstairs again until 4:30. But hey, after playing for an hour and getting that close to the end, I couldn't just stop.

We watched Cars tonight. That's a good movie. I love it so much. Especially the music. It's great.

My brother's all depressed because tomorrow's the last day of summer vacation. It doesn't bother me much, but that's probably because I know that my friends in the good old US of A have already been going to school for 2 weeks. =P

And now I intend to finish part of my ever-growing To-Do list. At least half of that list in made up of e-mailing somebody about something, so I hope to finish all the e-mails I need to do tonight, so I don't have to worry about them. Most of them I've put off for far too long anyways.

I also need to order a new reed knife and a sharpening stone, because I really really really need more reeds, and my blade is definitely super dull. It's crazy. So that's not good.

And forgive the random quote at the end of this. I couldn't think of a quote besides my various yelling/swearing at the game...

~Calminaiel~

"Sometimes tubas menstruate."