Wednesday, March 18, 2009

Life works

Has anybody else noticed how life just sometimes works out for you?

There are many examples of this in my own life, and I shall proceed to explain ones that come to mind.

There are the simple things. Like how I wasn't ready for my lesson one week and I was freaking out about how I hadn't practiced, and I was stressing like you couldn't imagine. Over the night, it snows, and my bus doesn't show up in the morning, so I miss my lesson.

Like coming back from paintballing with Ryley, Josh, and Jordan, and having so much fun I didn't really want to get back home, and Jordan suggests going for ice cream, therefore extending my time with them by an hour or so.

Like when you're running out of time and you feel stressed that you can't get everything done, and you find out that something's been canceled, giving you more time to finish things and calm down.

It goes on and on like that, and you can even get into bigger things.

For instance, how I got where I am today, with my bassoon. Think about it. In elementary, I knew my mom was in band in high school. I wasn't sure whether to do it, but my grade six teacher told me if I don't do it in my first year of jr. high, I'd probably not get another chance to, so I should try it if I'm thinking about it, and then I can just not do it again if I don't like it.

Then, on the first day of registering for options in jr. high, I almost didn't even sign up for it, because all my other friends at the time thought band was ridiculous, and I'd have to step away from them and go into unknown territory. Which I did.

Then there's the fact that I barely even know what a bassoon was. Here are the things I did know:
1) it was rather large
2) it was rather low
3) not many people played it

That was it. And yet I had some burning desire to play it.

And then I had to listen to my friends talking about what they wanted to do when they grew up, and they all had ideas of what to study in university and such...and I had nothing. I did not like classes, why would I want to keep going with them after high school?

Until somebody reminded me that I should do what I like. And the thing I liked most out of everything was playing bassoon.

And here I am.

But I digress.

My point is, I see so many people worrying about life, and making a big deal out of everything single thing that happens, and generally just thinking too much about everything.

My belief is that life will help you get to where you want to be. Even if you don't know you want to be there yet, as with me and music.

I'm not saying you should be completely passive with your future. But maybe we should all just slow down and let things work themselves out. I know people who, when they get an idea for their future, they make a beeline straight for it, and immediately start working towards getting there.

Now, I'm not saying that's a bad thing. But there is such a thing as finishing up before moving on. Ending a phrase nicely, because going on to the next one, as some might say.

Personally, when I get an idea for my future, I consider it, and basically just file it away in my head. Not to be forgotten about, but rather, to be reminded of. Contrary to rushing straight to it, but also not just waiting for something to come to me, I keep the thought with me, and keep an eye out for opportunities. Because I really do think that if you want to get somewhere, and you're willing to work for it, life will give you the right opportunities, without you having to sweat blood and tears to get there yourself.

That sounds like I'm preaching a little. I know I'm not perfect, and I'll admit, I don't do that all the time. There are many times that I'm too aggressive about getting somewhere in life, or even way too passive about it. But I believe my point remains the same.

In other news, I'm getting a very one-sided response to the latest poll. The idea has occurred to me that people are just replying in the way that they think I want them too, because they don't want to say that what I write is boring. But you guys wouldn't do that to me, right? =)

Of course not. I trust you. Even so, I really should pick a better poll topic for next time. Like...

I don't even know. But I'll come up with something for next time, I promise.


"We all play different instruments, with different shapes, and substances, and all with different apparatuses used for creating sound."


tango said...

Blogs are kind of confusing right now. They are new, and just evolving. We're making it up as we go along. Your blog is a rambling blog. That satisfies you. That's why you have the blog. You're not trying to please other people. We read your blog because we're your friends. It's like having a chat with you.

Corey de Baat said...

Robyn i'd have to agree that yes sometimes things work out perfectly but there are some things that just aren't meant to be. I'm not speaking higher power type "meant to be" sort of thing. But i mean when two people are dating and they're just not right for eachother... But then you could argue that it's not meant to work out so maybe the relationship not working is in a sense life working... i dunno. I guess it's how you look at things.

P.S. I'm actually trying to get on here more often!

Christine said...

Hmm, you make a very good point. I like it, I should remember that. (I being the one who wants to do everything RIGHT NOW - what is this "patience" you speak of?)

Anyways, I have all kinds of things I *should* be doing (I think my roommate might kill me if I don't clean up my carpet of sheet music in the living room sometime soon...) but it's far more interesting to sit here reading your blog. It's nice to have somebody else make sense of my thoughts for me! Perhaps I shall have to check back here more often.

P.S. If you're feeling like making another road trip, you should come visit me in Victoria! There's lots of room to crash at my house! ;)

P.P.S. If there's one thing I did learn this year, it's how to avoid being entirely unprepared for lessons. The secret is to have your lesson scheduled for first thing Monday morning, before you have any classes or other rehearsals. This probably sounds absurd, but the logic is as follows: Over the weekend, I tend to think most about whatever I have to do first the next week. So if the first thing I have on Monday is musicianship, that's what I'll worry about all weekend. By putting my lesson first, I think about that all weekend, and practicing suddenly gets priority over schoolwork. I tell you, it works like a charm for me! :)